(Please Note: The author of this piece is unknown, though we know it originated in New Jersey. Nevertheless, if you are from Italian heritage, or you dated a girl or fellow with Italian heritage during the 50's or 60's back in Bridgeport, Connecticut, surely some of the memories and sentiments expressed by the author will sound very familiar to you.)
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I was well into adulthood before I realized that I was an American. Of course, I had been born in America and had lived there all my life, but somehow it had never occurred to me that just being a citizen of the United States meant I was an American. Americans were people who ate peanut butter and jelly on mushy white bread that came out of plastic packages. Me? I was Italian!
For me ... as I am sure for most second generation Italian American children who grew up in the 40's or 50?s ... and THEM. We were Italians. Everybody else - The Irish, German, Polish, Jewish - they were the "Med-e-gones". There was no hard feelings, just - well - we were sure ours was the better way. For instance, we had a bread man, a coal and ice man, a man who sharpened knives and scissors who came right to our homes, or - at least right outside our homes. They were the many peddlers who plied the Italian neighborhoods. We would wait for their call, their yell, the individual distinctive sounds. We knew them all and they knew us. Americans went to the stores for most of their foods - what a waste.
Truly - I pitied their loss. They never knew the pleasure of waking up every morning to find a hot crisp loaf of Italian bread waiting behind the screen door. And instead of being able to climb up on back of the peddler's truck a couple of times a week, just to hitch a ride, most of my "Med-e-gone" friends had to be satisfied going to the A&P. When it came to food, it always amazed me that my American friends or classmates only ate turkey on Thanksgiving or Christmas. Or rather, that they ONLY ate turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes and cranberry sauce. Now we Italians - we also had turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes and cranberry sauce - but - only after we had finished the antipasto, soup, lasagna, meatballs, salad and whatever else mom thought might be appropriate - for that particular holiday. This turkey was usually accompanied by a roast of some kind (just in case somebody walked in who didn't like turkey) and was followed by an assortment of fruits, nuts, pastries, cakes and, of course, homemade cookies. No holiday was complete without some homemade baking, none of that store bought stuff for us. This was were you learned to eat a seven course meal between noon and 4 PM, how to handle hot chestnuts and put tangerines in red wine. I truly believe Italians live a romance with food. Speaking of food - Sunday was truly a big day of the week. That was the day you would wake up to the smell of garlic and onions frying in olive oil. As you lay in bed, you could hear the hiss as tomatoes were dropped into a pan. Sunday we always had gravy (the "Med-e-gones" called it sauce) and macaroni (they called it pasta). Sunday would not be Sunday without going to Mass. Of course, you couldn't eat before Mass because you had to fast before receiving communion. But the good part was we knew when we got home I'd find hot meatballs frying, and nothing tastes better than newly fried meatballs and crisp bread dipped into a hot pot of gravy.
There was another difference between US and THEM. We had gardens, not just flower gardens, but huge gardens where we grew tomatoes, tomatoes and more tomatoes. We ate them, cooked them, jarred them. Of course, we also grew peppers, basil, lettuce and squash. Everybody had a grapevine and a fig tree and in the fall everyone made homemade wine, lots of it. Of course, those gardens thrived so because we also had something else our American friends didn't seem to have. We had a grandfather! It's not that they didn't have grandfathers, it's just that they didn't LIVE in the same house, or on the same block. They visited their grandfathers. We ate with ours, and God forbid we didn't see him at least once a day. I can still remember my grandfather telling me about how he came to America as a young man "on the boat". How the family lived in a rented tenement and took in boarders in order to help make ends meet, how he decided he didn't want his children, five sons and two daughters, to grow up in that environment. All of this, of course, in his own version of Italian/English which I soon learned to understand quite well.
So, when he saved enough, and I could never figure out how, he bought a house. That house served as the family headquarters for the next 40 years. I remember how he hated to leave, would rather sit on the back porch and watch his garden grow and when he did leave for some special occasion, had to return as quickly as possible. After all, "nobody's watching the house". I also remember the holidays when all the relatives would gather at my grandfather?s house and there?d be tables full of food and homemade wine and music. Women in the kitchen, men in the living room and kids, kids everywhere. I must have a half a million cousins, first and second and some who aren't even related, but, what did it matter. And my grandfather, his pipe in his mouth and his fine mustache trimmed, would sit in the middle of it all grinning his mischievous smile, his eyes twinkling, surveying his domain, proud of his family and how well his children had done. One was a cop, one a fireman, one had his trade, and or course there was always the rogue. And the girls, they had all married well and had fine husbands and healthy children and everyone knew respect.
He had achieved his goal in coming to America and to New Jersey. Now his children and their children were achieving the same goals that were available to them in this great country, because they were Americans. When my grandfather died years ago at the age of 76, things began to change. Slowly at first, but then aunts and uncles eventually began to cut down on their visits. Family gatherings were fewer and something seemed to be missing although when we did get together, usually at my mother?s house. Now I always had the feeling he was there somehow. It was understandable of course. Everyone now had families of their own and grandchildren of their own. Today they visit once or twice a year. Today we meet at weddings and wakes.
Lots of other things have changed too. The old house my grandfather bought is now covered with aluminum siding, although my uncle still lives there - and of course my grandfather's garden is gone. The last of the homemade wine has been drunk and nobody covers the fig trees in the fall anymore. For a while we would make the rounds on the holiday's visiting family. Now we occasionally visit the cemetery. A lot of them are there, grandparents, uncles, aunts, even my own father.
The holidays have change too. The great quantity of food we once consumed without any ill effects is no good for us anymore. Too much starch, too much cholesterol, too many calories. And nobody bothers to bake anymore -- too busy -- and it's easier to buy it now and too much is no good for you. We meet at my house now, at least my family does, but, it's not the same.
The differences between US and THEM aren't so easily defined anymore, and I guess that's good. My grandparents were Italian Italians, my parents were Italian Americans, I'm an American Italian and my children are American Americans. Oh, I'm an American all right and proud of it, just as my grandfather would want me to be. We are all Americans now. The Irish, Germans, Poles and Jews. U.S. citizens all - but somehow I still feel a little bit Italian. Call it culture, call it tradition, call it roots, I'm not really sure what it is. All I do know is that my children have been cheated out of a wonderful piece of their heritage. They never knew my grandfather.
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